Tuesday, May 31, 2005
eh. boring dae. go school learn java programming. quite ok lar. veri interesting. then studying unx n window operating system, still got ITOS.. all computer stuff.. Zzz.. except maths. oh fuk. i need to learn amaths again. godamit. school got alot chio bus, budden. seems so bitchy de. oppx. i shld sae bad thing. cuz i;m a bastard too. lol. classmates. nv tok much to them oso. quite sian in school. went to take 5 alone. sitting down there alone smoke. haiz. sian lar. gd thing is just walk outside gate then can smoke le. hm. tiring. went to visit mum. still not beri strong. well, hope everithing's just fine. sms wif engxuan just now. chat abit. haha. we two are on the same boat. hehe. tong ming ren.. hm.. penny, we r crushing ur hse tis fridae. haha. wif beers..yeah yeah..
hao lar. not much mood to blog too. take care friends. miss ya all~
i'm special too =)
saw her blog, hope she will recovered from sickness soon. god bless her..
9:54 PM.x
Monday, May 30, 2005
hm. still feeling down.. hm. i've lost a veri close friend and my mum is in hospital. haiz. failure. i didnt even noe mum is operating until a few weeks ago. todae went to see her, she is in great pain. but i can;t do anithing. i almost teared when i saw her litdat. omfg, i dunno y recently tear so much. last time i dun haf such a problem. wo zhen de hao fan. whu understand me. sigh~ useless bastard. haven been realli laughing lately. just smth laugh for the sake of laughing. i think the last time i realli had a great laugh was when i watched the movie. sigh~ god save me.. but b4 tat, take my mum's pain away..
i'm special too =)
9:53 PM.x
Sunday, May 29, 2005
i'm sad. not becuz of her. hm. budden partially lar. hm. i thought abt it. my family is more impt. tml, mum's goin for op. i dun even noe for wat purpose. kaoz. i realli neglected her. my mum. she is getting thiner n thiner. i didn;t even bother to ask. everi dae i come back in the night. just ask her go sleep. i think i long time nv call her 'mum' when i get home. all i do is, go to my room, bathe, sleep. or not, think abt tat girl.. selfish me. these two nights wasn;t gd at all.. i'm so pressurized. so stress. budden. i cannot do anithing abt it. all i can do now is let go of tat so called friendship n carry on wif my life. i wanna care abt my family. my parents were right. i changed. alot. my temper, my attitude.. i wasn't litdat. hm. hope my mum will be alrite. god bless u.. nitez..
preet, all i can sae to u is, thx for giving mi a chance to meet u. i may cursed u or swear at u. budden i nv hated u. budden, i tot. since u alr wanted to move on. i will do tat too. we r no longer friends to u. budden, if u need some simple concern or care, i'm willing, as a friend in the future. or not, wo men jiang shi zhui shu xi de mo sheng ren. gd bye.
i'm special too =)
say all u wan, becuz i wun turn ard n sae ' i miss u' animore. thx for everithing u did. i grew up.
11:37 PM.x
Saturday, May 28, 2005
hm. just got back home. this morning. i woke up terribly upset. i kept thinking abt.. budden late afternoon, i begin to get back to normal.. haha. dumb me. hm. btw guys, i not goin to genting wif u guys. sorry, my mum is getting operation next week. she gotta stay in hospital for almost a week. so. i gotta take care of her. i dun wanna worry her oso..sigh~. nvm. we will still haf chance.. rsgl bros for life.. yar. todae came home exceptionally early. lol. 10 pm then reach home le. i can;t believe myself.. sian. tml maybe going fishing. heex. then somemore need to work in the afternoon. kinda sian. i dun wanna work le lar.. arghhhhhhhh. qas is coming back. yeah hoo~ bet u miss singapore food rite? singapore de chicken rice, nasi lemak etc. oh yeah. almost forget. our favourite hangout. MacDonalds. i'm lovin it.. and cwp too. haha. u haven smell cwp for a long time ya? hao lar. dun tempt u le.. lol. gd nitez guys. chio bus on the way on mondae. if u smelllllllllllllllllllllllll, wat i'm thinking.. *evil laugh*
i'm special too =)
10:46 PM.x
hm. tired dae. just reach home then kena nag n nag. haiz. budden this time i controlled myself. i did not argue. i just my mum finish she wanna sae. hm. i alr hen fan le. haiz. i kept wondering abt wat i said earlier morning. am i rite to sae those. i tried not to think abt it. but then i can't. sorry guys, making u all listen to my complain everithing. hm. budden feelings are hard to control. i tried to forget her by letting her hate me.. haha. dumb..
hm. yar. todae went to orchard wif yyh, jy, jonathan, ly, eve n penny. hm. fun lar. hm. wemt to a jap restuarant in cineplex. yuki n yaki, i think so. hm. steamboat. and sushi. not bad lar the food.. had lotsa fun toking there. had a great laugh too. budden, my mind was not totally there. then after dinner, we went out, then met chanel they all. lol. hw come got so mani friends there sia. oh yeah, we met alloy n kaili too..haha. small world. hm. then we went to watch moive, are we there yet. haha. nice show. veri funni n touching. we gl, took all the couple seats. lol. hm. when i sat down. i suddenly tot of those memories. then i suddenly tear.. lol. dunno y oso. then i went to the washroom to wash up and refresh myself b4 the movie started. sigh~ fuk lar..
hm. after movie, we send penny home. i mean onli help her find taxi. haha. cut queue. lol. then took train back. tok alot then send evelyn back home. and we sat down at the coffee shop n tok n drink.. school reopening soon.. sian. hao lar. gtg to sleep le. tml still got work.. nitez..
i'm special too =)
i lied......
1:40 AM.x
Friday, May 27, 2005
hm. early morning wake up. lol. i pon my training session todae.. Zzz. yar. it wasn't a nice morning either. quarrel wif her. hm. budden, i controlled myself. i did not tear. praise me. lol. yar. later meeting shiqian at 12.30 for lunch. gotta rush to bathe after this. then meet penny they all at 5 sumthing i think to town for fun. yeah~~ update agn tonite..
fen shou hou, ni bi chong qian kuai le. wo wei ni gao xing, zhen de...
i'm special too =)
11:43 AM.x
Thursday, May 26, 2005
kaoz. these two days like dunno wat litdat. fuck n pussies.. Zzz. yar. i luv to fuk pussies. lol.. hm. i just dun wanna sae animore abt it. later got trouble agn. i'm serious. if anione do tat agn. pissed me off. i dun care whu involved. outside of this matter de pple i oso will find. u noe whu tat person is huh. he is on my hatelist. cb. dl sia. budden quite funny lar. first time see penny type litdat. budden then.. pls, no more le..
hm. todae went to do flag day. haha. sp last yr record, lowest 40 cents. todae i go. i brk the record. i zero cents. haha. shiok. my tin got no hole lor. then margret sae help mi poke hole. i sae dun, cuz my tin is still a virgin. she sian diao, walked away.lol. then in the end i went back class empty handed.. hm. went to play pools wif new friends. lol. fun lar. then walk from esplanade to marina square, then to suntec city. then millenia walk. haha. still no money.Zzz..
mondae school reopening le.. wohooo.. funnnnnnnn.
i'm special too =)
10:55 PM.x
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
hm. perhaps i was too harsh. i just couldn;t control myself.. just let mi be alone ba..
loving a person is hard, forgetting a person u loved is even harder.
but i will succeed..
6:39 PM.x
fuking cb. read her blog until dl. sae limbei twist fact. i dare to sae. i dare to send everione the chat log n see wat she wrote to me on msn. i twist fact, whu is the one whu twist fact n left as tho she is totally innocent. u dun like then dun come n read lar. read le then kb for wat. u can sae u kb at ur blog onli. cuz it is ur blog, this one oso my blog rite. i like to kb cannot ar.. twist ur ass lar. twist. i no need pity by others. my friends noe tat. i onli tell them wat i feel. they noe my character veri well. u said, u will no longer appear on my msn list. let mi tell u tis. u haf been blocked before u block mi. dun ever think i will be holding on animore. cuz i wun.. i will onli let down my friends whu keep on comforting mi n sharing their advises if i go back. NOT ANYMORE. SHUT UP.
phew~ i seldom get angry wif girls.. Zzz. hm. todae went to orientation. hm. alot of chio bus.. lol... mi n yd see le oso song. budden went to class. kaoz. kns sia. onli 6 girls. then the rest i think 13 guys. sia lar.. sian diao sia. still got one like acm de sister litdat. cb. kan dao oso dl... wat to do. nvm lar. still got alot chio bus from other class. everidae lecture sure will meet de..yeah yeah.. the swimming pool is great.. lol.. i found it. veri near T19. yuppiex. hm. budden in class veri sian, so mi went to find yd during brk then ran out of school le. lol. margaret or jasmine, dunno which one lar, called mi to ask whr am i. i told them i need to work. LOL...then went to cwp wif yd to meet shiqian n yeeteng lor.. go walk ard tok, then go library. hm. just reach home. goin out later.
i'm lucky to get out.....
i'm special too =)
5:16 PM.x
Monday, May 23, 2005
hm. bad dae. wake up then kena scolding. of all the pple. y her. y izzit tat outsiders can see better than me. why izzit that i'm always e one to be the last to noe. y. y is there so mani y. i'm trying to stand. but she set mi falling down agn. tis time. the pit is deeper. budden. i will survive. i will climb. i won;t let her hurt mi agn. i promised. i gotta thx her. she set my mind straight. fond memories will always be wif me. i will move on. no more turning back like i used to be... it's dead end behind. penny n ly was right. thx pals..
hm. currently listening to the song of ssy blog. nice song huh. ssy, wat title is tat. lol. sq, hw ur dae. did dodo scold u? todae work was fine lar. at counter 1, shakina behind me. then we chat alot. haha. her hse onli opposite mine. so went home together then i drop down first to find lip n eric. drank a bottle of beer. ate horfun then smoke lor.. shiok. relaxing. it;s clear my mind. zhen de. haha. i find it weird too. budden a glass of cold beer realli makes u feel more alert n clear. haha. tml goin to sp for orientation. then just now when i was working. got one girl jasmine called. ask mi to met her at dunno whr lar. i called back budden cannot call thru.. Zzz.. my dad did not write the msg clearly. kaoz. suan le. tml then da suan. i think tml halfway i oso will pon wif yd de lar..i miss everione.. hm. thx girl, u r always there when i need someone to tok. haha. dun slp so much. hm. stop ur volleyball oso lar. hao le. gd nitez.
some pple r born to piss others off. she said me..
i'm special too =)
11:59 PM.x
hm. fuking morning. yeah. it is.. early morning then tat indian temple dunno wtf so noisy. tmd. ytd nite chat wif ly n sq on phone until 1 am.. Zzz.. sq so bad wor. rite ly? hse got party n marching oso dun ask us go.. onli care abt the 3 guys lor.. u gd..
last nite. it wasn't a pleasant dream.. i kept dreaming abt... no. it;s not true. i wanna 4get it.. zhen de.. it was just a lie in the first place.. budden i still wan my dream hse that i promised her....
i'm special too =)
11:29 AM.x
Sunday, May 22, 2005
hm. back from fun. todae afternoon went lip hse. watch vcd, shk, tok cock.. then we went to woodlands pt in the evening for snooker.. reach there then chio sia.. oh yeah.. those riverside students were there celebrating huize's birthdae.. haha. then inside snooker, got pple quarrel n almost fight. chio sia, litdat use cue stick to hit. the cue stick broke into two sia.. chio chio. i like.. budden too bad nv continue. tat fuking humji guy dunno why go out. cb..
then play snooker, number ball etc lar. play until 8 sumthing i think. then went to mac and so on.. hee. oh yeah. nice blogskin. thx xy.. budden my pc got spyware so cannot see well. budden when i saw it at lip hse. it was nice.. heex.
hm. chatting on msn now lor. eh. hao lar. go tok le.. bbz..
i'm special too =)
10:25 PM.x
hm.. happy vesak dae. lol. yar. just return home from the thai temple at cck n went to my grandma hse. i saw aaron at that thai temple.haha. so qiao. hm.. ytd went work then evening pei shi qian eat dinner.. lol. we ate at mos burger then we met shimin they all.. haha. tok cock wif wif shimin. hm. heard tat even matthew oso went for tattoo. Zzz. sbl..
i asked a few pple for advices. they sae they wun do it. so i dismantle everything. they told me it was not worth. i tot so too. it took mi one week plus. haiz. then i destroy everithing.. Zzz. dumb me. heart pain sia.. budden, wat yp said was true, wat if it turns out the way i predicted. wat will i do.. i cannot answer..sigh~ blog tonite ba. no mood now..
i'm special too =)
12:12 PM.x
Friday, May 20, 2005
hm. my pc kena spyware again. fuk sia. now load website fuking lag n slow. haiz.. need to format pc. budden whr got time. must work, then the onli off dae i must do smth.... haiyo.. realli wanna quit smoking lar..lol. u all dun believe.. Zzz.
haiz. i dunno i;m doin the right decision or not, or am i just childish. wat e use of doing all these when my heart is still not wif me..
eh, ytd work got another guy came, a new cashier lor. lol. a ex 24105 de wor. sek si. hm, yar i trained him.haha. we shared common topic. sbl.. another sathis.
these few days veri bored. nth to do de, mind keep thinking and thinking. tmd.. lol
yp, are u sure u thinking tat way,, u noe wat i will do rite. so. *ahemmp*. dun bo liao lar u. waste ur future. siao.. haha.. todae is a fridae. so it's mean it's Chiongster's nite. yar. i shld do some prayers. my hp is lost for a week le.. haiz.. amitabha.
oh yeah. sq. cheer up lar. one mark onli. next time sure can de.. =)
i'm special too =)
10:56 AM.x
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
hm. oh yeah. just saw smth. hm. i;m a fool agn. haiz. i wun trust girls animore( hm. budden i still trust those whom had been friends wif mi for yrs). haiz. my sis told me ' chi qing de nan ren shi mei you nu ren hui xi huan de' maybe she was rite. damn rite ba. sigh~ why am i doin all tis still? stupid me..
eh. just went to rss to collect cert. haha. sq, dun angry le lar. cool down~. hm. met up wif some friends lor. once agn, crap again. Zzz. hm. actually wanan go snooker de. budden i tot i wanna do smth which i need to finish by sundae. so came back ba. hao nan wor. budden nvm.. heex. si ssy, hao lian ur hp arz.. later i kope ur hp then u noe. heex. penny pang, go tidy ur hse quick quick cuz we r coming soon. lol. next time mi n eve after school, got time then we go find u ba. oh yeah. still got yongda.. fukin bastard huh? oi esther chong. wazzup..
omg, smoke machine. yarz. i'm SERIOUS. i;m quitting soon.. oh yeah. i noe u all think "bullshit", lol. especially penny.. haha. since sec 3, she n eve they all nag nag nag.. then i sae quitting until now..lol.. hao lar. zhen de lar.. look forward to e genting trip. yeah.. oh yar. i accidentally held her hands todae..omg.. i blush..lol. serious.. hm. u all dunno whu de. onli i noe n of cuz her. budden no chemistry de. heex.
i'm special too =)
6:52 PM.x
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
hm. i was wrong abt the soccer. wdl won. hm. no mood to blog oso. haiz. i was wrong abt her. totally numb nw. nitez
wat's e use of being special. heartless...
11:25 PM.x
lol. i just got myself a new hp..YEAH. i bought nokia 3230. i was shocked when i suddenly receive a call from my mum ask mi to go buy hp. i was like 'huh'. hm.ya. my mum paid for it. i think is $598 ba. heex. thx alot mum.. haha. whu noes. she might read my blog oso.. wahaa. later goin to watch soccer at wdl stadium. wdl vs sinchi. hm. i think tis match will draw. update u guys when i;m back. school is getting nearer n nearer. it means tat stress is coming budden it oso means tat chio bu is coming..LOL.. sitting by the pool doing hwk. hw gd is tat? tell u guys next time.
hm.. these few days quite happy de lar. except when i think of " ..... " and my hp lor.. haiz.. sbl.. hao lar.. update when i;m back..
i'm special too =)
226234.... it will always be e same
6:39 PM.x
eh. todae i got my sim card le.yar. still using same number. so u guys can sms or call me le.. budden can u all do me a favor. send a sms or leave me a msg at msn when u guys see mi. inform mi of ur hp number n house number. thx.
todae work quite ok lar. hm. not veri much pple.. eh. the new girl is there to work..omg. i;m teaching her bad things. LOL.. i ask not to be so serious when working. slack lar.. hm. she is hardworking too. schooling while working, somemore take Os tis yr. sbl..
eh. melody? do i get it rite. yarz. she asked mi whether working at ntuc is tough or not. i seen her quite often there lol.. then me tok cock wif her for abt 5 min. haha..funny.
now waiting for tat yyh to send me the song.. oh. penny, ur birthdae is coming.. omg.. wanna put at ur msn tat ur birthdae is coming ma. i still rmb sec 2. starting of the yr onli, she placed at note at the the upcoming event in communityzero tat her birthdae is coming.. kaoz.. so far lor, july 1st rite? sbl.. bhb.. =PpP. u taught mi tat..
xiaoyun? just read ur blog. take care lar. like since primary school i noe u, u always get runny nose de. always see u wif tissue..Zzzz... nitez ba.. tc.
i'm special too =)
( nite without stars, i miss those nites when we looked up the sky for stars... )
12:28 AM.x
Monday, May 16, 2005
2:13 PM.x
Zzz. hao sian wor. nth to do now. no tv to watch, nth to do at all.. toking wif thomas on phone. lol. discussing big project abt wdl survivor. haha. hm. i was rite. it wun last long de. budden i like the way now ba.. hm. or else later penny will nag again HOR? sae i always dun keep my promise. told ya le. i wun sway left or right de. hm.. see i sho gd oso. i help euu hor, ask pple help euu mop floor. tmd, ask mi go ur hse help euu mop floor. ni hao yi si wor.. still sae 5 yrs of friends le..Zzz..
evelyn tannnnn hai wo kena spyware.. arghh~ but heng, my sis got herself a smart bf whu noes hw to fix and of cuz a smart brother(me) , so i got it done quickly. i tot i need to format pc again like last time sbl. 2 times kena spyware in 3 days.. tmd suay.. todae i went to lip hse. play xbox. carry until there like dog.tmd tired. play NFS n Halo 2. chio sia. rockets.. bang bang bang.. hear e sound oso sek ki. omg. i;m enjoying too much.. tml haf to work again. then tml the M1 pple sending the sim card to my hse. damn them. still need to pay money for tat sim card. cb.. fuking m1.
todae weather is so fuking hot. haiz. i just hope it will turn out e way i wan..
i said smth on msn, but no reply from her.
i;m special too =)
12:13 AM.x
Sunday, May 15, 2005
hm. i'm so stupid. why i care abt her. i found out tat she n danny broke. i told her dun be so stuborn like b4.. i told her. i came back as a friend n she said...
obsession. says:
DONT CALL ME
obsession. says:
SMS ME
obsession. says:
OR EVEN SPEAK TO ME
obsession. says:
COS I DONT WANNA BE YOUR FRIEND.
obsession. says:
YOU MAY TAKE ME AS ONE. BUT I DONT
obsession. says:
SO LISTEN. YOURE NOBODY TO ME.
12:30 PM.x
Your Birthdate: January 10 Your birth on the 10th day of the month adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your life.
The number 1 energy suggest more executive ability and leadership qualities than you path may have indicated.
A birthday on the 10th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach.
This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush.
You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed.
You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations.
12:21 AM.x
Saturday, May 14, 2005
back from swimming. haha. the same old us, the same old me. we had our fun. tok laugh fool ard. tt's hw bros shld be. then after tat, went coffee shop. eat, drink, shk. then went playgrd shk again. sit n tok. then they all boliao say wanna play wat wdl survivor. hm. as usual lor. run up n down like dog, sweat like dog. i just see them play.. hm. then play somemore lor. pple see le, shout call police. then they run like dog. then i slowly walked away. haha. fun izzit. play somemore lar. later u all go in squat dun ask mi to go see u. like donovan de advertisment. heng lao da not there. or else jialat. eh. tis is the song penny ask mi to listen. ba ai fang kai. meaningful song. budden the song like last FIR de ablum wo men de ai. like almost same.>Zzz. later i go find the lyrics n see.. shiqiannnnnnnnnn, get well soon. rmb, we r special? lol. take care everione..
i;m special too =)
11:05 PM.x
back from work. fuking bo liao. whole dae Q nv stopped.cb. oh i forgot wazzup up guys. hm. tt's rite. i learning to walk alone now. seriously. it was a history. hm. yar. penny, u said u wanan hear tat from mi in the future rite. i promise. i will surely sae tat de.. haha.. thx. penny called me and ask mi to listen to a song. ba ai fang kai. i ask ssy to send me.. it;s nice to haf caring friends ard me. u guys simply RaWkZ =).
yar. these few days see ssy n xy de blog.. haha. then realli miss those fun. especially when i saw ssy blog. " go face the tree n laugh for 3 hrs' .. lol. i forgot whu said tat, karen ong huh> budden i just now we kept saying tat phrase for a time. yar. ssy, u rmb sec 3. we just met yuheng n tl. we kept saying, ' bu yao cao hor, deng yi xiang yi ting gai wo da.' lol. then sec two, we made staple bullets n throw others. then mr foo found those bullets we hid behind the curtain. he said, ' i can;t believe, at this age, some pple r still playig wif twisted staple bullets'. we kept quiet. haha.. still got wat ar.. oh yeah. ATTA at community zero. i still rmb. Anti TuaTao Association. we were the pioneers. hm. cherfu even said. " kaoz, i so tall sit behind hanyong oso cannot see" lol.. then sec 1. first time we got a english file. mr guru bo liao. ask everione to open the file rings n then one by one close. then the sound went ' ta ta ta ta ta.." lol. and my silence reading book. everidae oso same page. abt the dog one.. mr foo;s lesson. his drum set. lol. yongda andrew ziyang n jonathan they all squat in front of the class n be his drum. then got once they all keep touching the ceiling of the class.. then they step on the wire case of the back of the class. in the end it came off. i still rmb mr foo scolding then cheah tien said. " i nv kick, i onli step on the casing onli..' LOL.. sec 2 boys toilet got waterfall de. we keep playing wif the flush of the urinal. press le then water all splash out.. so fuking fun. haha. still got alot lar. lazy to sae all finish le.
lol
i'm special too =)
6:07 PM.x
Friday, May 13, 2005
tmd suay.. fridae 13. i hafta believe this freaking shit man. i lost my nokia 7610. first time i lost a hp. i used hp for 5 yrs plus, first time man.. i lost it at k pool. kaoz. it was stolen. i report police..
i got home. first person i inform was her. she laugh n said " haha, serve u rite, why isn;t ur wallet stolen oso?"
sigh~
i'm special too =)
10:12 PM.x
Thursday, May 12, 2005
He was a sixteen yr old boy, he just finished his O lvl exam. somehow, he gt a job in ntuc fairprice. there, he met her. a sweet sixteen yr old girl. they grew closer to each other day by day. they sms 24/7. somehw one dae, they discover both of them had feelings for each other.. one nite, he waited for her after work. they walked home. he asked for her hands. it was their first body contact. it was nervous. soon. they turn from strangers to lovers.. he tot yuan lai ai yi ge ren was so simple. naive him. they went for movies often, came out everidae. he ensure tat he call her everi nite. he wished tat the first n last person she tok to each dae was him. he loves her. all he wan was a simple love. he asked if she agree to marry him. she nod. he was overjoyed. he hug her n kiss. it was his best moment of life. everidae after work, they would go home together. he owaes ensure he send her home safely. it was fine all along. until another guy appeared.. he is called D. D was a threat to him. he live in fear everidae becuz D was her ex for 2 yrs plus. he begin to be over sensitive n jealous easily. then they started to quarrel. she was stress, he could see. budden he was stress too.. he didn;t wan to lose her. one day, he found out tat D kissed her. he couldn;t bear animore. he wanted to let it go. budden he didn;t bear too. so he kept quiet n close one eyes. budden, the image of D n her keep appearing in his mind. he teared quietly, he seldom tear. he changed, he became more hot- tempered. he vent his anger on her. she too, didn;t like it.. they broke n patch a few times. the relationship soon turn out sour. he hate D, he wanted to confront D. he wan to beat him up. budden thinking of her, he drew back. hwever, the more he drew back, it turn out tat the situation is getting bad dae by day. until one dae, he found out she was lying. she was wif him becuz she didn;t wan D to be in trouble. he was heart-broken, hwever she called. she explained. he believed. hwever from tat dae onwards. he realli changed. he was no longer him. he began to not trust her so much. then they quarrelled daily. until one dae, he just sae ' i wanna brk' unintentionally. she agreed. he tot they wld patch like b4. hwever he was wrong. he found out. she was back wif D. he cried. he tot, all the words n sms she said abt loving him, was it fake? he broke down for the first time becuz of love. she said, he was too negative. tat's y she left. he refused to accept. soon, they could not even talk properly. they owaes shout at each other. his heart was tearing.. now, he is back to normal budden in his heart, he realli miss her alot. he didn;t wan to let go, but it seems tat there is no turning. he noes his fault, he shldn;t blame her.. he longed for the dae where he could sae again. " baobei, wo ai ni, xiang ni..."
he teared again.. yi qie do guo qu le. it was a beautiful lie. listen to my blog song ba. perhaps realli last entry le. nitez n bye.
i'm special too =)
11:57 PM.x
wazzup.a brand new day. just woke up. fuking tired ytd. tok to yp until 2 plus then slp.. ytd watch house of wax. then i oso bought xbox de need for speed undergrd 2. kaoz.. waste $59.90.. i'm broke.. these few days must stay at home play until song le.. ytd nite. yp send me this and ask him to think.. "fen shou hou, bu neng zhuo peng you ying wei bi ci shang hai guo. fen shou hou, bu neng zhuo di ren(enemy), ying wei bi ci sheng ai guo. well i guess, it's true lar. hm. go play xbox le.. tonite i think i will blog a story ba..
i'm special too =)
11:54 AM.x
suan le suan le. yi qie jiu ran ta guo qu. everione let's not tok abt it. i noe they are helping me. thx. i realli appreciate. budden no point now le. yar. preet, as wat ur blog saes. i will fuk off. i regret sending sms just now. sorri. life has no meaning. lip was rite. anione noes hw to change url can tell mi asap.
regrets....
btw house of wax is disgusting but not bad. eng wah de couple seat nice. more comfortable than my sofa.lol. budden too bad... haiz.
i'm special too =)
12:44 AM.x
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
y am i feelin sad huh? confused..Zzz.. back on track now.. todae work is oso veri slacking.sbl. eh. yar.todae came spongebob squarepants de mini bolsters. lol.. i told shiyu tat i wanna buy, she dun believe. so i bought. i bought 2, i gave one to kitty.. haha.. dun doubt my words kitty..lol.. budden there is nth realli. pure friendship.. *swear*.
kaoz. i no money le.everidae withdraw..Zzz..sbl. i wanna go genting~~~~
i goin to change my blog song soon~
i;m waiting for u, waiting for u...
i'm special too =)
5:26 PM.x
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
hoo~~ tag replies: yd, study IT means noe IT ar. knn. 7-11 sell condoms mean can fuk inside 7-11 izzit.. cb.. : peny, regarding url, i realli dunno hw to change. *swear*. i'm not useless lor. lol
hm.. todae work is fuking slack. tis afternoon went to play pool wif engxuan n wendy n ly n jonathan. fun. ly n jonathan, u two sux. i onli pay 2 times. less than 1 dollars for ard 6-7 games..lol. effing useless.. ex n wendy.haha. long time nv see them. still the same ba. budden hairstyle all tis changed ba..everione has changed. no more innocent looking le. i;m the most innocent le.. ( c'mon, i noe u all wanna throw up le.. lol) eh yar. todae ntuc came one malay girl same age as me de..quite sweet looking de.. o.O
hm. sundae i'm off..yeah yeah.. sq, u ask me to watch tat movie when show de. sundae i'm free hor.. sbl. everione is mugging. kaoz eh.. so hardworkin for wat. tml finally got pple me work le..haha..kitty same shift as me. or else i will be bored to death..
*twinkle twinkle little star* heex. someone will understand tis.. =pPp
gd nitez pple.. all of u are on e table.cuz u guys simply RaWkZ!!
i'm special too =)
11:53 PM.x
last nite we quarrelled, then when she called. i screamed. childish me.. yp was rite, i will nv let go litdat, cuz of jealously. yar. bull eyes!!! i reflected last nite after tokin to yp. i shld just walk straight n dun turn back.. yeah yeah.. SP alot chio bu... tt's wat i told myself..Zzz.. i realli wanna thx my friends for being there when i need them. thx.. *hugs* yar.. hai you RSGL de brothers..lol. everi nite come out chiong. sbl. tis is effing fun.. you yi wan shui~
everione has trouble, it's whether they wan to run or face it.
i'm special too =)
11:23 AM.x
Monday, May 09, 2005
hey.hot weather.kaoz..sbl. yar.. him..tt's it. u're fukin dead. lol. todae off dae.did nth much. went to dye my hair lor.yar.i like tis color. more fresh. haha. then whole dae at home kam lan. evening went out to meet lip n ly, tok whether life got meaning or not..lol.
xin tong~ haiz. i begin to... her.. gd? yar. i guess so.. new chapter has to start...
brooommmmmmmmmm on fireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~
i'm special too =)
11:02 PM.x
yeah.. maybe not everione can see the previous entry, well, it was a lyrics of an jing. hm. i realli feel the way as those words in the lyrics.hm interested then go find the lyrics n see ba..veri easy to find..haha.. ya.this morning wake up then raining.house not even a single soul..lol. mother's day, mum went to m.y wif aunts they all..haha.. wat mother;s day lor. 24hrs nv see my mum le..haha.. eh.. then morning, yp came my hse to use pc cuz she dun haf ms words in her pc.. yar. then lip came oso to play xbox..Zzz.then went to 888 wif lip n ly to makan n watch super sundae.lame.. work is busy todae cuz morning rainin ma. then everione came in the nite. last dae for sathis le. take care my friend =) soon, it will be my turn le..feelin tired..budden weird sia. i sudden tot, i will miss fairprice if i quit. i haf been working there for almost half a yr..so fast sia. somehw, grew attached to it.. Zzz..wat am i thinking. i had my ups n downs there.. meet mani friends and most importantly her.. last nite, i teared while thinking of her.. sigh~ i just can't stop thinking abt wat she said.. love is nth but pain. somehow i suddenly agreed wid tis phrase.. hao lar..veri long entry le... bbz lar..
i'm special too =)
12:37 AM.x
12:23 AM.x
Saturday, May 07, 2005
hm.. a veri big thx to eve n most of all xiao yun.. *claps* for my making my blog.. thx. eh. and yar..yyh, for finding tis table song..lol..nice..the book is on the table.. todae work veri busy wor..
hm..not much time to rest oso.. sathis tml last dae le..haiz..so sian. i wanna rest arhhhhhh. hm. still strugglin to let it go. i noe it;s hard. budden i will try.. haiyo. todae pei jw go dye hair.haha..chio..nice lar..i wanna go dye oso le..so tempting.. tml is a sundae, it's mother;s day.. heex.. tml cannot make mummy upset le.. mondae i;m off..tt;s gd news..haha.hope u all enjoy my blog song..LOL..hao le..go play le..
i'm special too =)
11:40 PM.x
Friday, May 06, 2005
hm..here to blog after a few days.. eh. oso same lor. these n that happen..sigh~ budden.. i will be strong. =) my friends will support mi huh? hm. just came home from work..kaoz..sian lar..so long hrs.. ytd nite went drinking wif fel n june.lol..can u believe it???? sbl. then went play pool lor.she came. then after tat i dun wish to sae le lar.. yi qie do guo qu le, bu zhong yao. wo zhen de mei you tian fen bao rong ni ye jie shou ta, jiu yin wei wo tai ai ni le. haha.. wow..evelyn taggin at my blog wor..hee thx my 'dear'. lol. dun feel like working animore.veri tired..kaoz..everidae do the same thing over n over agn. hm. i wanna change my blogsong to forever love, ani volunteer to help??? heex.. eh..lip, cheer up k. all of our RSGL brothers will be wif u.. be strong.. hao lar
dinner time le...
i'm special too =)
6:15 PM.x
Thursday, May 05, 2005
yeah.. i'm bad. hate me.. Lalalala~ like i care.. Zzzz.. bo liao pple oso give mi troubles. tell them to shut up like will die litdat. hao xin tell u dun believe lor. now sparks alr started le lor.. see hw lor. last time was 1, now 2. haiz.. suan le..i dun be kaypo le..wanna die then let them die..
hm.
yeah..todae off..haha..dun let those boliao things spoilt my mood..i got tons of things to do..haha..meeting up wif sq and guys for dinner.. then fel n june sae wanna drink...then later wanna meet her oso...lol.. haiz.. wo de xin hai shi wang bu liao ta..
i'm special too =)
10:00 AM.x
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
wat a dae ytd..haiz..actually wanna go out celebrate my dad birthdae de..budden, mi n my mum quarrel just over a letter..-_-" then we shout so loud until my father bth le.. came out to shout at mi..and and and..i fought wif him.. haha.. on his birthdae..haiz..suan le..it;s all over.. i vent my anger on them. bad son huh? all my stress n anger, everything. i just dump it all on them.. i'm too engross in myself especially wif her...tis must change.. my parents are rite.. i dun even care abt tis family. haha..tat fight realli knock senses into mi.. her sms are cruel last nite, it hurts. budden it gave me the strength to carry on.. i noe her meaning. she want it all over ba.. hm.tt;s rite, i guess.. hm..hey..thx yp for being there when i need someone.. realli thx. great friend to haf.
hm..i need to change, realli change.. sbl.. haha.si yyh sent tat sms, do wat lj test. test out that i;m evil..Zzz..yar..evil..tt;s sound nice.. evil mojojo (shiqian, familiar ma). its time to carry on my life alone le.. independent le.. haiz.. is it gd or not? answer mi on tag?
i'm special too =)
11:20 AM.x
Monday, May 02, 2005
damn tired todae..haiz.. slpt onli for less than 4 hrs ytd.. sq.. dou shi ni de cuo. u cannot slp then make mi cannot slp pei ni..Zzzz.. yeah.. todae went to watch xxx2. wow..it;s cool.. superb. 5 stars.. haha.. met dorene n jason oso. haha.lovely couple.. haiz.. hm. it's had been months tat i watch movie on the indiviual seat.. o.O. after tis afternoon. i felt tat it;s coming back. it is getting stronger than past. is it gd or not? hao lar..go slp le..
i'm special too.. =)
11:26 PM.x
hm..just hung the phone. she sae she was tired. hm. 4get it ba..haiz.. yarz.. cherish..haha.. cherish.. tt's wat she said. haiz. y am i holding back.. =(
kaoz. todae sundae budden not much pple come ntuc, lol. tt's gd. quite a few bastards n bitches came to my counters. gl. waste my blardy time. stress up. hm.. these few days, shk until veri heavy. veri fast finish. sbl. i onli wish i could just see her.... i noe i shldn't. budden..haiz.. hao lar. gd nitez.
i'm special too.. =)
12:18 AM.x
